Crystal Tears

I was diagnosed with cardiac sarcoma in March of 2020. As the world felt like it was crumbling around us, I was struck with, what felt like, something bigger than the pandemic. My heart was literally being invaded. The heaviness of my diagnosis was suffocating.

I was bulldozed with the heaviest of emotions, but at the forefront of those emotions was fear for my boys and my parents. Every decision, from that moment on, was going to be made with them at the forefront. I felt like I needed to protect them, and in order to do that I had to shield them. Shield them from my true, deep pain. Shield them from my fear. I couldn’t risk my pain and fear becoming their pain and fear. I believed that I had to table my darkest thoughts in order for them to journey through this diagnosis.

I battled with strength. I was strong, but I was tested. I felt deeply that I needed to show my boys strength. Looking back, I took on too much of that. But, at the time, protecting my boys was #1.

I knew I needed to beat this and it was going to take intention, strength, and a lot of luck. My family needed me, and I knew it wasn’t my time to go.

As a believer in God and as a spiritual woman, I knew cancer was mightier than me. I needed to create a support system, but it needed to be separate from my family. I didn’t want them to see me break. My tears couldn’t become their tears.

I turned to crystal healing. If you’re reading this, you likely believe in the power of crystals or are interested in learning about it. If you believe that people who incorporate crystals into their lives are kooky old bats, you might be right, but we’re mindful and elevated kooks.

Crystals gave me control, when control was a hot commodity in my life. With crystals, I felt safe unloading my darkest thoughts. My energy felt protected. The space felt sacred. I could cry with my crystals.

I knew I needed as much support as I could get, and crystals and my belief system gave me strength, hope, and the right mindset to soldier through cancer’s darkest days.

To support me in my cancer journey, I chose crystals with specific healing properties:

Amethyst: As a natural tranquilizer, it helped relieve my constant stress, calm my fears, and soften my anxiety. Through a focus on inner peace, Amethyst aided in the healing of my mind, body, and soul.

Kunzite: Through its ability to foster spiritual peace, I was able to center myself, calm my nerves, and steady my breath. With a focus on enhancing the wellness of the circulatory system, Kunzite supported overall calmness.

Rose Quartz: With its properties focused on the physical body, it strengthens and balances your heart and releases impurities. It’s both calming and reassuring, allowing recovery to take place.

Today I am cancer-free. Not because crystals healed my cancer. I am cancer-free thanks to conventional treatment, an incredible team of doctors that repaired my heart, my angels who had my back the entire time, and because the universe decided to give me another chance. Crystals navigated me through that journey, and they continue to allow me to be present in the gift that is life. Crystals, as an alternative medicine, have nourished my soul and guarded my heart. Crystals provided me a clear lens; I see beauty in this life and in the struggles I’ve navigated.

I’m still processing those emotions. I still save my emotions for my crystals, and that works for me. Crystals can be whatever you want them to be. Crystals truly are an outlet!